i’ve always been a sensitive guy. i also err on the side of optimism when it comes to looking for the good in everyone. and, because i default to healing and uplifting, i try to understand why someone may be hurting so i can maybe help them feel better.
i’ve had to learn to temper the emotional sensitivities, and it’s a constant education. one can’t always know how to be in all situations, and it’s very easy to slip and slide into childish reactivity, which is embarrassing. i guess we attract to ourselves circumstances which catalyse greater awareness and understanding, usually at the cost of a tenderized heart or frayed nerves.
i’ve also learned that boundaries are an important aspect to emotional balance, otherwise this violent, shaky world is constantly and persistently hurtful. it’s far too easy to take things personal. the ideas of vindication and vengeance are readily available, yet they’re a fool’s errand and a cowardly way to live.
there’s so much more to an interesting life than our well-practiced addiction to negativity and competition.
so, i make no apologies for being sensitive, kind, caring and open, and i prefer to be generous with my time and energy, when and where i choose to. i forgive myself for harboring any resentment or momentary ill will, as letting all that shit go is the only way to clear the mechanism and get back on mission.
i read about subjective acceptance today, from the Law of One material, and it’s true, and speaks volumes, as timely messages tend to do. . .
The subjective acceptance of that which is at the moment and the finding of love within that moment is the greater freedom.
the finding of love is the thing of it, and it can take me a few days sometimes to do so… or even a few years. that which in the moment challenges our values or beliefs is always jarring. be patient with yourself.
breathe. look again.
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