Wanting is not neutral. In modern life, it has been shaped into a mechanism of deferral that keeps us reaching without ever arriving. Let’s examine how that mechanism operates — and how it can be dismantled.
Category: Journal Entries
thoughts, ponderings, experiences and lessons learned. or, something deep and life-changing.
Empires don’t usually collapse from external attack. They rot from within — through comfort, corruption, and the arrogance of believing they are immune to consequence.
Long before we question what we want, we’re taught what to want, who to admire, and what to fear so we won’t be cast out of the herd. Most never notice when that bargain is made, or what it costs. This reflection is about the moment the noise becomes unbearable, borrowed desires grow heavy, and the suspicion arises that freedom may require letting go of far more than we were ever told.
There is a particular kind of decay that does not announce itself through violence or ruin, but through forgetfulness. It is the forgetting of how to listen inwardly, how to sit with uncertainty, how to sense truth without being told what to think. Over time, this forgetting hardens into habit — reliance on systems, experts, devices, and doctrines that promise clarity while dulling discernment. The events of recent years did not create this condition; they merely revealed it. What we are facing is not a crisis of information, but a crisis of mind, spirit, and attention.
Reverence can quietly become self-erasure. When admiration turns into kneeling, something essential is misplaced. This reflection questions our habit of sanctifying the past — and asks what it would mean to remember ourselves instead.