i often feel quite in my element, and that i am on my mission, but, nearly as often, i get tripped up and frustrated in the practical things… like providing for myself and being able to pay the bills, so to free up my creative and conscious efforts, and get back to being a positive, uplifting, healing force in this world, at this time….
what is it that won’t let you sleep at night? what is it that gnaws at the back of your mind? what is it that angers, frustrates or disheartens you?
none of that is the issue. that’s all noise, programs, the ideas of other people, the seeds of cultural norms and expectations… but none of it is your own voice….
over the years, i’ve tried different ways and means to support myself, and to create the time and space to pursue my artistic endeavors….
“Your job is your side project.” a good perspective.
it’s a fairly common and repeating theme as we delve time and again into the creative life – or whatever we’re building, aspiring and moving toward – while we expend countless hours and energetic resources working a job to maintain a semblance of support for ourselves…and very likely a family….
we really are magnificent, multifaceted creators. even when we’re least aware of it, the world around us is shaped by such subtleties that only the truly alert and aware could notice, usually much after the fact….