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Category: Journal Entries

thoughts, ponderings, experiences and lessons learned. or, something deep and life-changing.

Be Surprised

Be surprised by something every day. Not just for the sake of novelty, for simply seeking variety is a recipe for living superficially and being perpetually distracted, always needing another hit.

Be Offended

Be sexist. Be racist. Be offensive and uncouth. Be brash, politically incorrect and insensitive. Be messy and unrehearsed.

But don’t get stuck there. Be real.

Be in error. Be ignorant and misinformed. Be impolite and inconsiderate.

But don’t get stuck there. Be real.

Unpacking the Misery

At some point on the journey toward truth, there comes a tipping point. At this critical moment, you will ultimately discover that everything you’ve been seeking the answers to is moot. The exercise of seeking is simply a means to an uncomfortable, yet liberating end: everything is a story, and nothing is real.

Anger

I’m angry. I’m angry because I love you, and care about your future — rather, our collective future and our wellbeing — and I feel powerless to protect you from those strange, delusional few who are out there: those whose aim is to foment and to feed off your fears, your need for emotional expression and creative satiety, your need to be seen, to be held, and to belong…to control your every move, to make you believe you’re fragile and weak, and then to profit from your self-induced illnesses.

I’m angry because I don’t know if there’s anything I can do about it.

Touchstone

Today I am missing real connection. As the thought crosses my awareness, I’m astonished to consider that maybe I haven’t really had such a feeling or experience since I was maybe three or four years old.

So, what happened?