It’s not always easy being a human in this world. It’s always changing, and there is a lot of damage (psychic, physical, karmic, spiritual), with generations of unbalanced energies to process and recapitulate. All this complexity, unfortunately, expresses itself in how humans treat themselves, other humans, and the earth—thus creating cycles of trauma.
Your path was meant to test you—to make, break, twist, disorient, disintegrate and remake you. Who else but you could design something so intricate, maddening, and unique? There’s nowhere in the universe you would be able do what you can do here, now.
In today’s convoluted arena of human experience, most worldly concerns can be reduced to one simple question: who stands to profit?
The war machine trudges on, as the military industry seems always to need more weapons. Big Pharma continues to work on both the cause and effect sides (both profitable) of human physical, psychological, and psychosomatic experiences. They have the biggest advertising budgets, though likely comparable to the oil cartels, and thus concurrently control a lot of airwaves and global media narratives.
You’re not finished, and you’ll never get it all done, but you have already succeeded. You’ve pursued your mission, in one way or another, and while you certainly feel you haven’t done nearly enough—that you could be of better service, that you could be more at ease, and more profitable or productive—those ideas are based on industry, not on spirit.
If you’re like me, you have a tendency to be aware of, or to feel responsible for, the feelings and emotions of others. This can be a disorienting perspective, because you get into the habits of compromising, accommodating, and catering to their needs, at the cost of your own wellbeing.
For much of my life, I’ve done this in unhealthy ways.