Journal – Trance Blackman

Here you’ll find my philosophical meanderings in the form of articles, essays, and occasional poetry. My interests and curiosities are broad, but the central focus remains the pursuit of what is authentic, real, and true.

Lux et veritas

Journal Entries / self sabotage (21 Posts)

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The Committee of One: The Internal Obstruction

03 February 2026 ~ 5 minute read

Most of the obstacles in my life weren’t external. They were procedural. Internal. A one-person committee skilled at delay, deflection, and convincing arguments for doing nothing. This is a note from inside that room, and a reminder that the only way out is movement.

On Remembering: Every Thread of the Tapestry

29 September 2025 ~ 5 minute read

We arrive at every moment already complete, though the world would have us believe otherwise. This reflection is an invitation to release the illusions of control, to see beyond the masks, and to remember the essence that has always been within.

There Is No Try

31 May 2025 ~ 2 minute read

There comes a quiet moment when the soul remembers — it was never meant to live in chains. Not of the world, but of thought, fear, and forgetting. Freedom isn’t earned through effort, but revealed through awakening. You were never broken.

Quick Fixes and the Long Game

18 January 2025 ~ 6 minute read

In an age of instant gratification, we are drawn to the illusion of quick fixes, often framed by a parade of success stories — whether on stage at motivational seminars or, more commonly, scrolling through social media. These narratives promise effortless fulfillment, yet they are ultimately a gamble. True stability and resilience come not from fleeting trends but from rising above them, seeking what is authentic and enduring. This path requires an uncommon commitment to self-awareness and introspection — questioning our beliefs and thoughtfully considering our actions.

The Freedom Paradox: In Search of Home

19 November 2024 (rev. 21 November 2024) ~ 6 minute read

My life has been a journey of seeking freedom while grappling with self-imposed limitations, financial constraints, and a nomadic existence that, while offering unique experiences across various communities, reflects deeper struggles with discipline, alignment, and the challenges of being a creative in a system that often stifles authenticity.

You Are Who You Are

25 September 2024 (rev. 21 May 2026) ~ 12 minute read

For years, I’ve wrestled with the uneasy tension between who I am and who I believed I needed to become. Like many people, I’ve chased reinvention through new environments, ambitions, routines, and ideas, convinced that the next pursuit might finally quiet the underlying sense of restlessness. Yet no matter how far I wandered, I always found myself returning to the same essential nature — the same instincts, curiosities, rhythms, and creative impulses that have followed me my entire life. Perhaps the real challenge was never becoming someone else, but learning to stop resisting who I already am.