There’s a quiet chaos inside us all, a web of contradictions and untold stories. It’s often in the space between those contradictions that we begin to understand ourselves. We wear our wounds like badges, but it’s in their unraveling that we find the thread of who we truly are.
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Yes, we need to trust our internal (emotional) guidance system, but we can only trust it to the degree that we are aware of ourselves.
Which aspect of you is reacting to this?
Is it the one that’s been shattered — the one where trust was destroyed, and everything feels numb and disconnected?
Is it the one you inherited from a parent, who taught you to believe that this is either a good or bad thing?
Is it the one that makes you feel guilty for moving toward something that feels good?
Is it the one that’s ashamed of your appearance, your bank account, your old car, your sensitive nature, or your bold and brutally honest way of expressing yourself?
We are many pieces, yet we are one. A book has many chapters, far beyond the back-cover copy or the blurb just inside. To truly know yourself, you must get acquainted with the many aspects that make you whole. Some would call this recapitulation, or the process of a life review. This awareness is the key to integrating and elevating your self-understanding, which is essential for authentic connection and communication — both within and with others.
Further to that, our thoughts and feelings don’t necessarily belong to us, but we often attach our sense of self to them, getting swept up in the energetic rollercoaster that follows.
These elements — our emotions, thoughts, and reactions — are constantly influenced by inner and outer forces: the people around us, our environment, the sounds we hear; our health, diet, exercise, routines, and even our breathing patterns.
Trust, whether in ourselves or in others, takes time and practice.
So, be easier on yourself.
Solvitur ambulando