in life, it’s not about luck, or timing. like most things in this place, it’s about what’s relevant right now….
i’ve always been a sensitive guy. i also err on the side of optimism when it comes to looking for the good in everyone. and, because i default to healing and uplifting, i try to understand why someone may be hurting so i can maybe help them feel better….
what is it that won’t let you sleep at night? what is it that gnaws at the back of your mind? what is it that angers, frustrates or disheartens you?
none of that is the issue. that’s all noise, programs, the ideas of other people, the seeds of cultural norms and expectations… but none of it is your own voice….
there are many “best” moments that have come and gone. i try to have fewer regrets about anything as i get older. holding any negativity or judgment toward anything, really, is only ever self-serving and muddies the lucidity of awareness and inspiration. it’s been far too easy to beat the shit out of myself, or to project my fears onto others….
i’ve often made the mistake of letting the day to day worries and anxieties paralyze the process of creativity and preparation. and then ten years have passed….