Journal – Trance Blackman

Here you’ll find my philosophical meanderings in the form of articles, essays, and occasional poetry. My interests and curiosities are broad, but the central focus remains the pursuit of what is authentic, real, and true.

Lux et veritas

Journal Entries / personal history (10 Posts)

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Pattern Break: Accidents on Purpose

01 November 2024 ~ 8 minute read

30 years ago, I died. It was mid-March of 1994, as I recall. I was 18 years old, and this may or may not have been about the 5th or 6th time I had been in a situation where I could have been over and done with this life — and yet, I decided to remain, or to come back and keep on keeping on.

Mining the Depths of Reason: One Man’s Journey

10 January 2024 (rev. 21 February 2024) ~ 15 minute read

Over the past few years, I’ve done a great deal of harm to myself. I feel it in my body and I can see it in my face. My avatar’s lifespan has probably been shortened by several years, if not decades, due to the intensity of psychic, psychological, and emotional energies that have been emerging and culminated in the paradigm-shifting events of 2020–2021. The psychological warfare we all went through (and will continue to be subjected to daily) was undoubtedly a peak experience, but for people like me and those who are similar to us, this is just a part of the ongoing inner/outer mental/spiritual struggle that we face throughout our lives.

The Dream

27 December 2023 (rev. 07 August 2024) ~ 4 minute read

There’s the dream
That’s been shadowed
By the rain
By the constant weight of fear
Do the echoes break my stride

There’s the dream
That’s been covered
By the skin
By the weightless swell of tears
Can you hear the crying shame?

Gifted

21 January 2017 (rev. 27 November 2019) ~ 3 minute read

It’s funny how life faithfully keeps us shifting and twisting and questioning and breaking the mold. The more we awaken and become aware, the faster it comes.

Brutal Truth

20 January 2017 (rev. 27 November 2019) ~ 3 minute read

There are many things we aspire to be or do in life. Little things, big things, epic things. That which lies in the arena of the latter is likely the blessing and the curse of our personal legend.

Through the Lens of Time

19 November 2016 (rev. 24 December 2024) ~ 2 minute read

As we journey through life, our understanding of the past evolves alongside us. With each new layer of experience, we gain the ability to revisit and reinterpret moments that once felt fixed in time — unlocking the power to shift our present, heal old wounds, and embrace a deeper sense of wisdom.