My parents were never able to provide the emotional support or conscious partnership that each required from the other. They valued things differently. They certainly communicated in different love languages. They were never able to express these concerns. They had children, so they pushed through — but this, too, in my opinion, was a mistake. They came from a different generation, and from a different culture, one marked by struggle, endurance, perseverance, self-sacrifice, and, unfortunately, a deep-seated quiet desperation.
Tag: vulnerability
In my experience as a film and video editor, one of the most common challenges is having enough raw content to create something of substance, flow, and meaning. So much is decided in fractions of a second, and often in only one or two frames, that we can quickly run out of useful material. Editing is manipulation. Editing alters the pacing, meaning, theme, and structure, as well as the altering eye.
That which we identify with, owns us. All of our conscious and unconscious decisions are influenced by what has been, what we associate with, what we adhere to, and what we have been trained to believe. In fact, exploring new and unfamiliar territory can be terrifying because it is outside the norm and represents a loss of control and vulnerability.
There’s a saying, that if you don’t stand for something, you’ll fall for anything.
Many of us experience this, or a variation of it, often pretending to be okay with it, primarily in our relationships… the most debilitating of which is often with ourselves.
The world is changing dramatically, though perhaps this has always been so. Privately, we might increasingly prefer solitude, intentionally isolating ourselves as a practice in order to integrate and innerstand all of the intense energies that are arising. Or, we may choose to avoid the process by immersing ourselves in constant busyness and the maddening, unfulfilling rules of the matrix.